Well, the time has come, I need to do it, have needed to do it for a while, but I can no longer put it off. I have to clear my mind, body and soul of all that haunts my past and hopefully become a stronger person in the process.
I believe there are going to be many steps in this process, and alot of pain and tears as I work through my demons, but I will continue, no matter how hard it become, because this MUST be done now, or I feel I will surely drown.
I do not wish to hurt anyone in this process, nor do I wish to find a scapegoat from what I have become, or things I have done. My main goal is, for the first time in my life, tell the complete truth about everything, no matter how big or small, and work my way through how each of these experiences has shaped me, good or bad, into the person I have become today.
I will change the names of people, so as not to hurt, humiliate, or anger them with my story. Just because I want to work this out of myself, does not mean I must hurt others in the process. I hope you will join me on this journey, because perhaps you will learn something about yourself as well, or perhaps, you will be better able to understand others. Who knows, you may find that you too have things you need to work out, and maybe I will be the one who spurs you to act upon it.
Whatever the reason, if you go along for the ride, please understand that it will not be rosey all the time, will not always be fun, but it will be the truth, plain and simple, for there is no other way.
